Sunday 15th November 2020
Life is flying by. This year has been different. The Covid year has changed a lot of patterns. Our brains are rewiring. I guess some people will adapt easier than others. I see every week fly by as I write daily in my journal. Every day wondering where the year has gone. Now Christmas and New Year are also “changed” I wonder if these to will all blur into a grey cloud and how we will reemerge in 2021 as the most grim time of the year commences.
No parties and meeting friends and family really possible. Nothing to look forward to but the uncertainty of two weeks of getting on each others nerves in the house and retreating into our individual screens. Followed by the certainty of an uncertain 2021, I wonder how we will all deal with it.
Our society is disorientated, we are scared to express opinions, we don’t trust our governments but we don’t know any better and also feel we need to follow someone. My study of philosophy is a great help in this. Helping me focus on what I can control. Although I am aware that we are heading in a dangerous direction, I also know that I have no control over it. What I can control is myself. I can try to remain calm. I can keep an even keel, focus on my health, focus on my job and have limited influence through my action over others that I am in contact with.
What is difficult for me is dealing with others close by. My view on the world comes to the surface and I sometimes get confrontational and frustrated that they can’t see the bigger picture and the dangers that lie ahead. But I am learning more and more to deal with these things. Being able to let them go and quickly remind myself that people are not really able to be open to other ideas and viewpoints unless they have reached that point in their own journey and are looking more openly for “truth”. I just need to remain patient and gentle and I believe that is the most effective way for myself to deal with it.